Friday, October 21, 2016
A memorable afternoon
Sunday, August 7, 2011
A quick letter home...
I need a quick vote…bat in the house…do I need to get it out? If so…how quickly??…I remember having to recommend rabies shots “just in case” to a child in the US that had merely kept a bat in a Styrofoam cup and looked at it through a cut-out hole…I also remember entering a cave after dark and finding a large rock to stand on so that I could listen and hear the bats flying around my head…so, for the current bat in our home here…I might feel hypocritical either way…
Well…as it was getting dark, we had closed the screen-less windows and doors to keep the number of mosquitoes inside to a minimum…so we re-opened the windows and doors and tried to inspire movement outwards…we turned on the lights and waited for the bat to fly out…the bat was flying around, yet not any closer to what seemed to me to be a fairly decent opening…especially considering everything I could remember from my safari animal wildlife card collection…up to this point I had incredible faith in their innate, non-visual ability to fly unimpaired through all sorts of obstacles…and additionally to find big openings…the bat kept landing upside down and hanging out (…) on the ceiling, so I had the idea to start up the new ceiling fan…it too had the desired effect….the bat was flying closer and closer to the doorway…it seemed like he/she was in tune with the fast-moving metal ceiling fan…avoiding it appropriately…then a fairly definite “TWAKK” echoed from above…the fan wobbled a bit, slightly off kilter…then it released the startled bat, which careened very much under gravity’s pull…it soared gracelessly nearly ten feet toward the open door…not only was it startled, it was also dead…I killed a bat, I couldn’t believe it…yep, doing great, productive work here in Colombia…the kids sitting in our doorway were completely amused…maybe at the dead bat, or maybe at my wide-eyed reaction…I found a broom and swept it into the rising water that is currently surrounding our home…I felt pretty smooth…
All is well here, from my own human standpoint…As this trip is to be slightly longer, it had the initial benefit of being better paced, so that I didn’t have to start teaching immediately. I have had a bit of time to organize things from home and get ready for things to come here. I spent the bulk of the week getting the office, equipment and medicines ready to start seeing patients and to travel to communities again. As always, there have been distractions. I am still fairly confused about the state of health care that is being provided in the town where I live, but I am learning more daily. People are really troubled due some recent changes that have made it more difficult for people to get medical attention. We aren’t really equipped to meet those needs in this bigger town, but the promoters in town and I are doing what we can. It is hard to walk down the street, and hear the stories and the general concern all around.
And the water is rising again. It is coming up fast. I think last year’s flood left so much sediment in the town that now all the homes seem closer to the ground. When I arrived last week, Main Street was dry; it is currently under water. The planks, serving as walkways, have been reconstructed. This is weighing heavily on people too, especially after last year’s long flood and subsequent destruction.
Despite the rising water and difficulty with health care, this has been a week of celebration here. This is the annual celebration of the local patrona, La Virgen del Carmen. Each day a different barrio pays tribute with music, dancing, processions and drinking. All this occurs in the street, as there isn’t a decent common space. I can't begin to describe the dancing here. There are amazing movements to beats I can't hear. It all culminated Saturday with church services and La Virgen taking a spin around the river and though the flooded streets. We have been keeping a low profile, but have enjoyed the festive mood.
After an amazing thunderstorm, I awoke yesterday morning happy that our water tank had filled from the rain. I cringed at myself as I looked down, fully knowing this would also mean that the water had also risen. Then my fellow volunteer, Teri and I got ready to walk to church. As she is still getting used to commuting on narrow, wobbly planks, we decided to use Main Street. Thinking that not only would the passage be easier, but it also had the additional advantage of being able to see the aftermath from the prior night’s festivities. There wasn’t much to see on Main Street beyond large expanses of water. We spent nearly 20 minutes trudging through nearly boot-height water. We searched for a route with established planks or at least water shallow enough to keep our feet dry. Over boats, around homes we went, and finally came within visual distance of the church. Our neighbor was perched in the doorway shouting helpful directions. “Step on that floating grate, not that side, the other one…good, now go straight toward the green house, then walk along it and then cross over here…”…after the focused trip, we were able to look up as we neared our destination…the normal congregation was depleted from La Virgen del Carmen celebration and the fact that the priest had left early in the morning for his annual retreat…we walked up the steps, dry and proud of arriving that way…it did take a village however…”great, they are here…now let’s start” said the nun (who is also one of our health promoters)…a man with cymbals stood up and started to play, the man with a goat-skin drum to my left took up the beat...and we were off…I don’t talk very much about going to church here. As we work locally as an arm of the Catholic Church, the church structure is more a part of my life here than it is at home. It is a great way to feel a part of the community and have access to the needs of the smaller communities in the area. The order of priests living here is dedicated to dispersing education into the more rural parts of the region. As we are doing the exact same thing for health care, our work is very similar, parallel and complementary. Getting to know the clergy is usually pretty entertaining. I can’t wait for their vote on the bat situation…
I wrote this note nearly a month ago. I want to send it along as I am feeling pretty far away. The past month has flown by. The treatment room is functional. The promoters are working in their communities. We are in phone contact with difficult cases. I just got home last week from a 10-day trip to 4 communities. Each time I go out, I learn new things and feel more a part of the work here. I hadn’t been to this particular river in nearly 3 years and it was great to go back. In our absence, the water has subsided slightly. I am currently in a bigger town preparing a course that starts the beginning of September. I head back Tuesday and leave for another visit to the communities at the end of the week.
Despite its brevity and lack of a catchy story-line, I am going to place this on blogspot. It is challenging to share what living and working here is like, but I love hearing how much people like reading about it.
I hope this finds people healthy and well.
Please take care,
bg
Saturday, October 24, 2009
another bike ride...
A half hour ago I got a call from the daughter of the cook I described a few letters ago. Her mom, our friend, was pretty sick. She didn’t have a car to bring her mom to us at the house, so I am on my way to her. After getting the call, I woke up M, the promoter living in our home. She couldn’t describe where I needed to go, but thought maybe she could find it, if she saw it. As I had examined our cook in clinic just after lunch, I knew she was sick. I had recommended that she go to the hospital immediately. With money, transport, and uncertainty in the medical care in the hospitals, especially during the late afternoon, she opted to sleep in her home and go to the hospital early in the morning. Apparently she had gotten worse, and she really looked lousy 9 hours ago. M pulled her hair back with a band, and without changing from her pajamas, was ready to go. I put on some clothes, threw things into a bag, grabbed the car keys, and my license. We ran out the screen kitchen door. Empty driveway. Definitely a “crickets chirping” moment…we looked at each other…I ran around our classroom building because sometimes the promoters leave the trucks there. Empty. ”Bikes! Get your headlamp…” I said to my promoter friend as we ran back into the house. The promoter that lives here is a wonderful woman and a great medical provider, but I completely forgot she is just learning to ride a bike. I remembered this the moment I sped down the driveway, flew into the street and waited for her to call out a direction. More crickets. She persevered bravely, but fell pretty badly and soon after leaving the driveway as the roads were in atrocious condition. She tried to keep going, but her frustration broke through her universally pleasant demeanor. “Forget this…I am waking people up…I am going to find the cars…” Then she groaned as she remembered she used up her most recent pre-paid phone card and couldn’t make a call…I gave her my phone to call our colleagues. As I was really nervous about the time that had already passed since the initial phone call, I asked her where to go. She quickly said “al tope!”. (which means to the very, very end (of the road).) hmm…I jumped on my bike and sped off to "the end of the road". And I kept going. The road got smaller and more overgrown, the houses got further apart. When the road ended in a mass of trees and brush, I figured I had probably gone far enough. No one was waiting, no lights were on. It was dark. I raced up and down streets. Got chased by dogs. Nearly hit some goats(??) laying in the road. I think they were goats. They didn’t bark. It sort of felt like I was treading water in shark-infested waters…biding time until I found the house or received an inevitable mugging or dog-bite.
Meanwhile la pobre promotora…using my phone, she was unable to reach anyone. No one answered her calls. Stuck and getting more desperate, she started pedaling to the center of town. She cautiously approached some people working for a traveling fair that is currently on the town park-center. She got afraid and thought better of asking for their help and pedaled away at the last instant. With a fleeting thought of waking up the padre in the local Catholic Church, she opted for people she knew should be awake and had transportation. “La policia!” (I need to say the civil war here really changed how the public view government agencies like the police and the army. This relationship is vastly different and does not contain the innate trust people in the
Amazingly, I saw a shadow of a man moving up ahead. Sweaty, mud-covered, in the thick of darkness, I sped over to him. On hindsight, in the middle of the night…this might not have been really prudent…“Do you know where Doña C. lives? The cook??”
He was initially thrown off and confused, but as he began to start a reply I saw a truck cross the road a ways behind me, but headed in the general direction where I thought our cook’s house should be. I didn’t wait for his response; I spun around, thanked him over my shoulder and started to chase it down. It was moving steadily, and it had lots of distance on me, but it was impeded by the puddles. Despite its lead, it was hard to lose as there weren’t any other cars on the road, especially with working tail-lights. When it was still blocks ahead of me, it turned a corner. I eventually got to the turn, sped around the corner to find that I had gained! The truck was
”Hey! Yep, yep...that is my friend!” A voice erupted from the backseat. The promotra, who had been describing a here-to-fore fictional back-pack-laden, bike-mounted North-American with a head-lamp sat back and smiled in her instant credibility. I threw my bike in the back of the truck and we headed off.
Still lost, however…We called the number back of the woman who called me to get more specific directions. We used home colors, a school and a phone tower as reference points. “All our lights are on” the family reassured us. “Get out front and wave a flashlight around!” We turned the corner and our headlights lit up a thin old man waving a flash-light over his head. The few lights that they possessed were on, but they didn’t have many and none were outside their home. We ran into their one-room house. Doña C. was pale and shivering on her bed, under her mosquito net. She was sick, but it wasn’t immediately obvious that she was worse than she had been earlier. The more I examined her, the more nervous I became. She needed to go to the hospital immediately (again?...still?). The family had no means of transport. In the past year, our town has been fortunate to not only obtain a serviceable ambulance, but also to find a responsible driver and a local doctor that approves its use. The ambulance is a basic revamped pick-up with an elevated cab cover over the truck bed. When in use, the construction prohibits verbal communication between the driver and the patient. Usually a family member rides in back and taps on the glass for any concerns. We are often teaching the family the basics of intravenous lines and fluids as the ambulance is pulling away. Having a vehicle of any sort reserved for transport of sick people is a luxury that often is unsuccessful here for a variety of reasons. In our town, the system is functional and effective…that is if the approving doctor answers her phone…another strike…she doesn’t live locally, and as we are the only people who handle emergencies here at night, she is usually available to us. Not tonight. M, the promotora, asked if anyone knew the ambulance driver’s phone number. She used his first name, preceded by the polite “Don”. M’s head nearly exploded when one of the policemen asked, “what is his last name?”…Desperate…she called back to our house where another promoter was sleeping. He answered his phone! But to say that she was able to wake him up would have been a complete overstatement. She finally shouted “wake up…I need your help! Brian wrote the driver’s number on a letter…it is on…”
”I can’t find it…it isn’t here”
“I didn’t tell you where it is yet…”…Though his lucidity improved, he didn’t end up finding the letter nor the number. But the daughter of the patient said she might know where the driver’s home is…everyone ran out of the house, leaving Doña C., her husband, and me alone. I started fluids, checked vital signs and arranged her for transport. I looked around their home. They lived rustically; they had a roof over their head and they had each other. The husband entered the one-room home and I realized he was dressing up to go to the hospital. He was tucking a clean, pink, collared shirt which had frayed elbows into a pair of thread-bare pants. He looked at me as he tried to arrange his hair in the mirror-less room. “Thanks for coming to help.” Something about the man dressed in his nicest clothes, in his dark home as I am preparing to send his wife to the hospital really resonated with me. This man and woman are poor for reasons outside of their control, but have maintained their dignity, kindness and generosity. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have an opportunity to be here experiencing real life in a different culture. I also am not thankful enough to have been given the freedom and the opportunity to make choices in my life and to pursue a career that I want to follow. I was pretty shaken.
The moment was shattered as the ambulance arrived. People flooded into the home again. The boys: the weary-eyed ambulance driver, the prepared husband and I stepped outside and waited for her family to change Doña C into clean bed-clothes. The night was clear and not too hot. I learned that our bikes were now at the ambulance driver’s home. I memorized the location and repeated it back. I wasn’t taking chances. By 1:30, we were walking our cook toward the awaiting ambulance. It wasn’t easy. She was tired, weak, and still really sick. The IV was cumbersome as we helped her along. We kept sending people back to her bed and closet for forgotten items. Finally she was in the ambulance, covered with a blanket, extra clothing and materials, ready to go. I looked at the ambulance driver, he didn’t seem too bothered to have been woken up at this hour, but he still had a long drive to the hospital ahead of him. Doña C asked for us to send her to a hospital further away because she didn’t want to cross the river. The nearest referral hospital requires a short ferry-trip. A bridge has been planned for years, but hasn’t come to fruition. We convinced her she would be safe, and started to close the doors. “Aren’t we going to O’s house??”
“Doña C, you need to go to the hospital…and who is O??”
After another short discussion, we learned that C was using the proper first name of her partner in cooking, that few people ever called her.
“She is asleep C, you can call her in the morning and she will come visit.”
“She is ready, I know it.”
“Have you called her? Is she waiting?”
“No, but I know she’ll get ready quickly when we wake her up.”
We kissed her and closed the ambulance doors. We were dropped off at the main road. The truck continued off toward the hospital as we finished the walk home and quickly passed out asleep under our mosquito nets.
This happened just over two weeks ago. Doña C has just gotten back home. We haven’t been by to visit yet. I found out today that O had sensed something was wrong that night. She had indeed
been waiting…in her doorway, watching the dirt road, packed bag at her feet.
See you soon,
brian
Friday, July 17, 2009
letter home...
I was hoping to be able to keep up with personal correspondence as well as send an occasional blog entry out to you guys. I am finding that for whatever reason, I am not doing so well. This is a letter I wrote last week. My desire to keep everyone informed has overcome my fear of being completely redundant…and my mom read the note and asked me to publish it…there is no better reason than that…Thanks for reading along…
Hey gang…it has been too long and I was feeling like I needed to get in touch…though to be truthful, I don’t have a specific story or message to share…I hope this doesn’t get scattered…with that intro, how can it not…
I just found this from a letter that I started a few weeks ago, but never finished…I guess I can blame the heat…
“…I might come dangerously close to belaboring this point…but it is still hot…really hot…hanging out at 105ish…humid…our poor cat is pregnant, really pregnant…she seems like she groans when she waddles around the yard…even the birds and rats play nearby, knowing she is way too encumbered to exert any authority…the people I work with and the patients are complaining about the heat…I guess it is hot from anyone’s standpoint…dogs in the street are pissed…snakes are even biting more often…everyone is frustrated…come on down!!...”
I am glad to say the rains have started coming more regularly now…our cat had kittens (I’d include a photo, but risk complete ostracization) and the food chain has been re-established in our yard…it is incredible when the rain falls…water to drink and showers to be had…it puts things in perspective…on the less positive side, the puddles have given rise to an angry mosquito horde as well as some pretty impressive mud…the mosquitoes have really cut down on my microscope time…i can’t sit anywhere for a prolonged period without getting eaten alive…I thought my body would acclimate or something…not yet…still waiting
speaking of bug bites…the last time I wrote a really quick tease of a message promising a night off and internet…we had just wrapped up a course for the advanced promoters…I spent the last hour talking about jaundice and Rh isoimmunization…I couldn’t believe it went as well as it did…I was terrified...after getting back to Flores and doing some grocery shopping, things spiraled downward…pretty quickly I started feeling lousy...I went to bed early thinking I was tired…I woke up and immediately knew all was not right….I got the 5 am bus back to our clinic, and was sent to bed on arrival…although there were people keeping a close eye on me, the fevers came late that night…as that was a clinical change, I dragged myself out of bed, shuffled across the yard to the clinic, through an amazing rainstorm (I am not making this up…I swear), I poked myself and took some slides of my blood, and started treatment for malaria. I couldn’t think of anything else that fit my symptoms and for which we had therapy…due to my delirium the slides didn’t turn out very professional(ly?) nor polished, but they were enough, in combination with my slow improvement with treatment to suggest malaria as the diagnosis (although I had been taking prophylaxis…just like my concussion-causing face-plant despite my cranio-protective helmet)… I started to have a glimmer of hope after 3 days of chloroquine, by 5 days out I felt pretty much back to normal…although a colleague found some rum raisin ice cream on day 3 as well, so I am holding out for that as the amazing cure-all…god it was good.
On the plus side, I had 3 days where I didn’t have strength for anything but reading…initially I couldn’t focus on much besides trashy crime novels, but as I started feeling better I read more and more challenging books. I just finished Confessions of an Economic Hit Man by John Perkins. I thought my work abroad would teach me about medicine, Spanish and local culture. I should have been more aware, but wasn’t, that this would include an education in
After a five-year hiatus, I just restarted Gabriel Garcia Marquez’s Love in the Time of Cholera. I don’t know if it is the Colombian setting, the story or the style, but I am hooked. What I remembered as a dreary story about a man suffering from unrequited love is still about that, but I am laughing more and enjoying the wording and the characterization much more. There is an expression in Spanish “me cae bien”. (I hope I am not repeating myself…I looked in some older notes to see if I have described it before, but I didn’t find anything…)…it means “to fall well”. medicines, people, events can all “cea” bien o mal (poorly)…a medicine that works and the person gets better “falls well”, whereas a medicine that causes an upset stomach or doesn’t make the person better doesn’t “fall well”. this is a huge reason people stop treatments here. this can happen minutes after the dose, regardless of the medicine and hereafter will always happen…it sort of removes any blame…My point is that for some reason the book seems to be falling much better this time than it did the last time. I guess it is the way I am looking at it...or, alternatively, maybe it is because this edition has Oprah’s approval on the cover. Oh god.
quick question…does anyone know what I am supposed to do about ants in sterile fields?...The other day in clinic I had anesthetized, cleaned and prepared an area around a cut and was focusing on closing a wound (and trying not to drip sweat onto the work space)…slowly, approaching from the corner of my vision…an ant ambled from the picnic table up onto the patients arm, onto the drape and into the wound…he or she was completely immune to my efforts to blow him away or at least off-course…there was an admirable determination there…Flies I can understand, sure…but an ant seemed more intrusive somehow… I grabbed it with a pincer and chucked them both…can anyone send me any evidence-based thoughts or strategies??
we still get sick visitors at all hours…the easy ones are sick…you can see them coming from the gate…it is bad but you get started immediately trying to make things less scary…the more difficult ones for me are the ones who want to be seen, but aren’t really too sick…whether we see them or not isn’t really too defined and depends on lots of factors…how long has the problem been going on…where the family lives…if there is blood, impaired consciousness or a pregnancy involved…nothing like high standards…the other challenge are the patients that feel like they are gravely ill, and are trying to be taken seriously, but everything checks out ok…I try to relax and joke a bit to improve the anxious mood…normally when middle-aged men come in after hours, it is usually pretty urgent…a guy came a few nights ago just as we put dinner on the table…he was screaming and writhing around outside the clinic door…I couldn’t find anything wrong…his history, exam, tests weren’t concerning…from his actions he was pretty convincing, but slowly I began to get the impression he was hoping for more attention…I didn’t need to hear more than…”this is the pig flu! I know it…”…”its not? how about HIV? do I have that??” I think that’s when his wife lost her conviction as well…I decided to drag a cot out of the salon, elevate his feet and give him 15 minutes to see what happened…in the mean-time the Christian church next door started kicking…and it is right next door…it has microphones, huge speakers and not one person that sings on-key…this used to be funny, but it is nearly every night…it is difficult to have phone conversations and sometimes I need to wait for a break to hear breaths sounds…anyway…the church got going, as I crossed the yard from the kitchen to the clinic…the patient promptly rolled over and vomited…”that music gets me pretty sick too” I mentioned, with a smile…my Guatemalan colleague laughed as unbeknownst to me, the husband and wife had just divulged that they had recently and proudly joined the fore-mentioned church…yep, can’t put a price on valuable international ties I am developing here…smooth…
I was finally able to talk with my sister tonight…I was asking about current events… she mentioned she saw that the Utah bars are now public access…I remember before leaving that people were planning pub-crawls and parties…ahhh…I hope you guys had fun…I feel really far away sometimes…it is funny the unpredictability of things that bring that feeling on…though friends on a main st. jaunt definitely would…or maybe it was just the heat…
brian